Makenzy's Mama!

We had a pretty good weekend!

Friday: I worked, picked up Makenzy from the sitter, went home, cleaned the house, played with Makenzy, cleaned the house some more, had a dance party in the living room, put Makenzy to bed, watched some tv, finished up laundry, went to bed.

Saturday: Got up early, finished picking up the house, had a surprise birthday party for my Mom, by 6:30 everyone was gone, cleaned up a little bit, got Makenzy to bed, watched some more shows, looked at my messy kitchen and gave it the finger (not literally), went to bed.

Sunday: Got up and went to church, came home, put Makenzy down for her nap, wanted to take one myself but finished up the cleaning from the party (finally), almost fell asleep then Makenzy woke up from her nap, David got home from work, we all put socks on and took turns sliding in the foyer on the hardwood (a new favorite thing Makenzy LOVES to do), had another dance party, then did some more sliding in the foyer, we were all tired so we spent the rest of the night cuddling on the couch.

I live for the silly moments that me, David and Makenzy have! If people seriously saw all the crazy things we did - they would think we were insane. But, we have so much fun! As David, Makenzy and I were laying in the foyer spinning on our backs laughing hysterically, I had to stop and thank God for my little family.

There are a few kids Makenzy age that I know who are battling Cancer (Dante) and Lukemia (Cassie) right now, and another little boy who has had to face multiple surgeries for various medical issues (Brody). I am praying so hard for them and their families, but at the same time thanking God for all that he has blessed me with!

It is frightening how suddenly your life can change in the flash of a second. I hope and pray that I never have to experience the heartache and worry that these parents have faced. But, I know God is faithful! He can heal sickness and mend broken hearts! He is the great physician! Dante, Cassie and Brody are all in our thoughts and prayers! They are all strong, amazing kids! If you are reading this and can spare a prayer - I'm sure their families would appreciate it.

Last night Me, David and Makenzy were cuddling on the couch watching tv and Makenzy started looking down her shirt. I said "What's in there sweetie" she said "hair" I said "Where's hair?" ARE YOU READY FOR THIS - she said "On my boobs". Hopefully we won't have to have THOSE conversations for quite a while! For now - we couldn't help but laugh hysterically!

I picked Makenzy up from Mamaw's house yesterday after work, and as we were driving home I accidentally rolled one of the back windows down. Makenzy said "Mom, oh my gosh - you scared me to death!" I was laughing so hard I was crying! She is growing up too fast.

Makenzy was the flower girl in a wedding last weekend. I was so worried that she would freeze at the back of the chapel and start crying for me (which is not unusual when she is scared). But, she was a champ! She smiled and walked slowly down the isle to me at the front of the church. My little girl is growing up - I don't think I'm ready for it!







We are making home made pepperoni pizza tonight - I thought Makenzy would like helping me make dinner for a change. I definitely need to do laundry tonight too. I wore my last pair of pants to work today - and would rather not come to work naked tomorrow!

30 more minutes of work left - I miss my baby girl like crazy today!

So, I am starting weight watchers tomorrow! Well, I'm not doing the whole program like going to meetings and things. But I am doing the point counting system and exercising daily. Makenzy and I have actually been walking almost everyday. Sunday we took a two hour walk around the neighborhood! I feel so much better when I exercise and she LOVES to take walks in the stroller.

Anyway, I'm tired of being a fat girl! I never had a weight problem as a child or a teenager! But when I turned 18 - I think I went up 18 sizes! It's been 11 years of gaining some weight each year and I'm ready to be myself again! My first weight goal is to lose 40 pounds and then probably another 20.

Man I'm gonna miss that diet coke and chips and dip before bed at night! :)

I have been noticing lately that Makenzy is JUST like me! She says and does things exactly like I do. (example) If David and I are passing each other - I always put my arm in front of him playing around. Makenzy walked by him last week and did the same thing, then she started laughing hysterically at herself for doing it. I said "I can't believe she just did that" David said "Why can't you believe it, she is just like you - she does everything you do". She might look more like her Daddy (although she does have some of my features), but she definitely acts just like her Mama! And yes, I am very proud of that! :)

I guess it just really makes me feel like less of a failure as a Mom for having to be away from her for 8 hours a day. The past couple of days I have really realized that it doesn't matter to her that I am a working Mother. I really am the most important person in her life and she loves me unconditionally as I do her!

I am making a promise to my daughter: I will no longer feel guilty for having to be a working mother! I promise her that I will live everyday with a positive attitude so that my life and hers (David too) will flourish. I will cherish the moments that we have together and not take them for granted.

I can't believe I haven't written since August 8th! The past two months have been a big blur. Okay - so on with the update:

We moved into our new house on September 6th, but didn't finally close on it until the 12th (Friday morning). On Friday night (the 12th) we had our immediate family and a few close friends over for Makenzy's birthday Luau! Surprisingly, we managed to get the entire house painted, moved in, unpacked, and had everything together in 2 weeks (before her party). I am completely exhausted, but am happy that we can relax in our new home! There are still things that need to be done - pictures to buy and hang, the landscaping needs ripped out and re-done; but these are all things that we like to do. I think the yard is one the agenda for this weekend. Our neighbors are all so friendly! Our next door neighbor is a little weird though - but still nice.

so, my little princess is 2! Where has the time gone? I vividly remember the day I brought her home. I remember what she was wearing and who came to our house to see her. I remember the feeling of guilt and disappointment I had with myself for not being able to nurse her (she couldn't latch properly). I remember the plethora of emotions I had when I looked into her innocent eyes. It really seems like it was yesterday!

She amazes me more and more everyday. She is smart, witty, hilarious, sweet, caring and beautiful (among other great qualities of course). I can't wait to see what the future holds for her. Whatever that may be, I'll be right there beside her cheering her on all the way!

(Pictures of the house and her birthday will be posted by the end of the week)