Makenzy's Mama!

Last night Me, David and Makenzy were cuddling on the couch watching tv and Makenzy started looking down her shirt. I said "What's in there sweetie" she said "hair" I said "Where's hair?" ARE YOU READY FOR THIS - she said "On my boobs". Hopefully we won't have to have THOSE conversations for quite a while! For now - we couldn't help but laugh hysterically!

I picked Makenzy up from Mamaw's house yesterday after work, and as we were driving home I accidentally rolled one of the back windows down. Makenzy said "Mom, oh my gosh - you scared me to death!" I was laughing so hard I was crying! She is growing up too fast.

Makenzy was the flower girl in a wedding last weekend. I was so worried that she would freeze at the back of the chapel and start crying for me (which is not unusual when she is scared). But, she was a champ! She smiled and walked slowly down the isle to me at the front of the church. My little girl is growing up - I don't think I'm ready for it!







We are making home made pepperoni pizza tonight - I thought Makenzy would like helping me make dinner for a change. I definitely need to do laundry tonight too. I wore my last pair of pants to work today - and would rather not come to work naked tomorrow!

30 more minutes of work left - I miss my baby girl like crazy today!

So, I am starting weight watchers tomorrow! Well, I'm not doing the whole program like going to meetings and things. But I am doing the point counting system and exercising daily. Makenzy and I have actually been walking almost everyday. Sunday we took a two hour walk around the neighborhood! I feel so much better when I exercise and she LOVES to take walks in the stroller.

Anyway, I'm tired of being a fat girl! I never had a weight problem as a child or a teenager! But when I turned 18 - I think I went up 18 sizes! It's been 11 years of gaining some weight each year and I'm ready to be myself again! My first weight goal is to lose 40 pounds and then probably another 20.

Man I'm gonna miss that diet coke and chips and dip before bed at night! :)

I have been noticing lately that Makenzy is JUST like me! She says and does things exactly like I do. (example) If David and I are passing each other - I always put my arm in front of him playing around. Makenzy walked by him last week and did the same thing, then she started laughing hysterically at herself for doing it. I said "I can't believe she just did that" David said "Why can't you believe it, she is just like you - she does everything you do". She might look more like her Daddy (although she does have some of my features), but she definitely acts just like her Mama! And yes, I am very proud of that! :)

I guess it just really makes me feel like less of a failure as a Mom for having to be away from her for 8 hours a day. The past couple of days I have really realized that it doesn't matter to her that I am a working Mother. I really am the most important person in her life and she loves me unconditionally as I do her!

I am making a promise to my daughter: I will no longer feel guilty for having to be a working mother! I promise her that I will live everyday with a positive attitude so that my life and hers (David too) will flourish. I will cherish the moments that we have together and not take them for granted.

I can't believe I haven't written since August 8th! The past two months have been a big blur. Okay - so on with the update:

We moved into our new house on September 6th, but didn't finally close on it until the 12th (Friday morning). On Friday night (the 12th) we had our immediate family and a few close friends over for Makenzy's birthday Luau! Surprisingly, we managed to get the entire house painted, moved in, unpacked, and had everything together in 2 weeks (before her party). I am completely exhausted, but am happy that we can relax in our new home! There are still things that need to be done - pictures to buy and hang, the landscaping needs ripped out and re-done; but these are all things that we like to do. I think the yard is one the agenda for this weekend. Our neighbors are all so friendly! Our next door neighbor is a little weird though - but still nice.

so, my little princess is 2! Where has the time gone? I vividly remember the day I brought her home. I remember what she was wearing and who came to our house to see her. I remember the feeling of guilt and disappointment I had with myself for not being able to nurse her (she couldn't latch properly). I remember the plethora of emotions I had when I looked into her innocent eyes. It really seems like it was yesterday!

She amazes me more and more everyday. She is smart, witty, hilarious, sweet, caring and beautiful (among other great qualities of course). I can't wait to see what the future holds for her. Whatever that may be, I'll be right there beside her cheering her on all the way!

(Pictures of the house and her birthday will be posted by the end of the week)

First of all, please excuse me if this post makes no sense! It is just after midnight and I cannot for the life of me fall asleep! I am so excited about selling our house, but am completely stressing that we have to be moved and in our new house in 3 weeks! David and I are so in love with our soon to be new home! I hope that we will have as many great memories there as we have had in this house the past 4 years.

Thanks to my insomnia I have just picked out most of the paint colors for the entire house! I'm still not sure what I want to do in Makenzy's room? I'll probably just do one main color with an accent for now, and then when she moves into her "big girl" bed I will update her decor at that time. Also, I have no idea what I want to do in any of the bathrooms? I think I will take some pics the next time we go through it so I can ponder on that for a week or so!?

David has given me complete interior design control over the entire house! For those of you who don't know....David is very opinionated about decorating a home. Luckily we have the same sense of style when it comes to decor, but it is a little annoying when he challenges me on the color of a lampshade! Most guys could care less what color of paint is on the walls or what type of carpet is laid on the floor - not my husband! This is a big step for him! Maybe he has realized how much I thrive for this type of thing. Interior design really is one of my passions.

Tomorrow I have to work all day, get the contract for our new home complete and get all of the documents together needed for our loan. I think we are going to go look at furniture tomorrow night. We need a new dining room set, kitchen nook table and chairs, office furniture and living room set for the new house. Saturday, David and I are going to eat at a really fancy restaurant (Jag's) in celebration of him graduating college this week (I am so proud of him) and the purchase of our new home (I need to ask Mom if she will watch Kenzy cakes). Sunday, will be church and then our buyer is coming at 2:30 to have her uncle do an "inspection".

Well, it's almost 12:30am and I need to get up at 5:45am! If you made it this far through my ramblings....thanks for reading! :)